Okay, I’m just going to be honest.
I remember saying that before I post on here or before I go to bed after posting on here for the day, I must spend some quiet time with God but that has been happening consistently.
For some very strange reason again, I’m back down the spiral of withdrawing from the Word, while yet still trusting in God with my head knowledge of Him. It’s like this knowledge is refusing to translate into heart knowledge, as I don’t feel very close to Him. But I also know, that in times like this, I shouldn’t trust in my feelings because they aren’t reliable at times and they fail me. I know that I am near to God but I also know that I should draw near to God as well. So it is good that I feel remorse over my complacency in relationship with God. And so this grief should lead me to repentance, back to Him. Back to desiring to spend time with each each day and enjoying His presence. This is godly grief.
And so I ask that you please pray for me that God give me strength to continually turn to Him each day, beginning and ending the day with Him intentionally and enjoying the time in His presence. And also that He keeps filling me with wisdom and discernment and strength to follow His will each day, no matter how hard it may seem.
Thank you ❤