On the surface of things, it may seem like just an ordinary issue of selfishness in that I don’t let other people play their music while I’m on a row with mine. In that I find it difficult to offer people food. In that I only think of myself when making or getting food. In that I am always late to class. In that I am always late to meet ups. In that I always waste people’s time.
But it’s more than that. It goes beyond selfishness and on to pride.
I think too highly of myself. I see myself as more important than others. I put my needs over other people’s.
But then it goes beyond the matter of pride and straight to my heart; straight to who I am as a human; my nature. I am dead; dead in my sin.
But God, rich in His infinite mercies and ever abounding love, took me and gave me life and decided to work on me, gradually transforming me into who He wants me to be.
Without the work of the Spirit in my life, I wouldn’t have been able to notice these terrible traits of mine, let alone admit them. I can admit that I am prideful and selfish apart from the Spirit, because I am. But I have gradually gotten better. I do struggle in some areas, more so than others, moving forward in a rocky way, but from afar, a steady growth process can be seen.
And because of this, because of the new creature I have become in Christ, I testify to you all of Him. How He’s sanctifiying me, setting me apart for the purpose He created me for; making me holy. It is a process; a life-long journey but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.