Y’all, my day was going by just smoothly until I saw a tweet that read, “the baptism of the Holy Ghost with initial evidence of speaking in tongues is real.” And I was like, “wut now?” Don’t get me wrong, I know it’s real. It happened through out Acts but but, I thought Paul said it wasn’t all too necessary in 1 Corinthians 12? And so I went to research. I looked up the common verses in the Bible about the indwelling of the Spirit and the filling of the Spirit. And I found that in fact, not all possess this gift but we can all earnestly desire it, because I mean, what’s there to lose?

To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good.

For to one is given through the Spirit the utterance of wisdom, and to another the utterance of knowledge according to the same Spirit, to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by the one Spirit, to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another the ability to distinguish between spirits, to another various kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues.

All these are empowered by one and the same Spirit, who apportions to each one individually as he wills.

1 Corinthians 12:7-11 ESV

You see, early last year, I hungered for this gift so badly and when I saw that even though I asked and begged God over and over again to give it to me, and He didn’t do so, I felt it wasn’t for me and just gave up. No matter how much I tried to “learn” speaking it (lol), it wasn’t flowing. It felt as if I was faking it.

Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? Do all possess gifts of healing? Do all speak with tongues? Do all interpret? But earnestly desire the higher gifts…

1 Corinthians‬ ‭12:29-31‬ ‭ESV‬‬

As time went on, I guess I was kind of okay without the gift because I understood that it didn’t mean I wasn’t saved. Nevertheless, I want to experience Christ fully. I want to have a faith that surpasses beyond comprehension. I want to be knowledgeable, executing the Holy Spirit’s direction in all I do. I want to be so wise, regrettable decisions would be almost non existent in my life. I want to prophecy, using it as a medium to send forth the gospel and I earnestly want to speak in tongues, to edify myself in Him. Mahn, I really do. I want to live my life to the fullest, experiencing all that God has in store for me. I want my relationship with Christ to get deeper. I want to ask my Father what I ought to ask Him and only the Spirit can help me with that, for I am too weak to know it.

Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.

Romans‬ ‭8:26‬ ‭ESV‬‬

The one who speaks in a tongue builds up himself, but the one who prophesies builds up the church.

1 Corinthians‬ ‭14:4‬ ‭ESV‬‬

And I know there’s got to be a reason why I’ve been seeing some signs recently about speaking in the Spirit. Just a few days ago, I see a Christian Influencer, urging us to pray in the Spirit at all times, and then earlier today, my friend posts Romans 8:26 on her Instagram story and then I go on twitter about two hours ago and see the tweet of the initial evidence of tongues with lots of retweets and responses and I’m like, yo. I need to get out of my comfort zone. Someone has been sleeping. Where is that fire that was in you before? Where is it Serena, where? I don’t know about you, but I need to start praying to my Father more. I need to cry out to Him. It wouldn’t make Him hear me anymore but I want to do it. I want to go all out. And I know, I know asking, begging, and crying out to God to bless me with a certain spiritual gift wouldn’t force Him to, but I will do it to declare my dependence on Him. Because without Him, I am nothing and without Him, I am hopeless and so I want His Spirit to manifest in my life; for my good and the good of others. And as my Father has instructed me to do, I will keep asking Him in faith. At the end of the day though, God’s will will be done!

Nevertheless, I desire to live as one who has the Spirit dwelling in her. I pray to be loving to those around me and afar from me; those that know me and those that don’t as well, and even more-so, live my life grounded in love. Why? Because it is the greatest thing one can ever desire to display, manifest and be rooted in. Not the tongues, not prophecy, not wisdom, not even faith, but love.

But earnestly desire the higher gifts. And I will show you a still more excellent way.

1 Corinthians‬ ‭12:31‬ ‭ESV‬‬

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians‬ ‭13:1-3, 8, 13‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Have a great day, loves ♥️🌹♥️

Update: Today, 9th Jan, I sat with my friends, Ruth and Shanyl and asked them about tongues and prophecy. So they explained to me that while spiritual gifts are good things to pursue and desire, having them having them doesn’t make one any more of a Christian than the one who doesn’t have them. And one of the things I love about them is how they always point me to scripture to see what it says about a certain topic, directly. And the fact that I was asking what they thought about a certain spiritual gift meant that I should first find out what it means to have that certain spiritual gift and so is a call to study scripture more. They also mentioned that the main thing focused on throughout the new testament is basically growing in sanctification. So the real deal is, am I growing in holiness?
Moreover, I still experience Christ fully by attaining all that God has planned and willed for my life. And if that means having all the gifts, one of them or none of them, then so be it. All that there is, is that I’ll continue to desire them and if I don’t get them till Christ returns, then no worries. I lost nothing desiring them and I also don’t want to limit myself in the possibility that a certain gift was not meant for me. But what I will not do, is pretend that I have a certain one and live a false life. Moreover, I still have the Spirit in me because I was given Him for sanctification once I put my trust in Christ, only possible by the grace of God.

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