I Think I Get It Now

I woke up today feeling alright. I didn’t feel any rush toward WordPress and that was amazing! Because I was getting a bit overwhelmed with it these days. I also made a decision to not come up here and write unless I get answers from the Lord and also if He tells me to go ahead. I still had slight questions about my calling in life and what it means to be led by the Spirit, but God has been using the past two days to help me understand them. As I read a certain plan about God’s plan on YouVersion, the will of my Father became clearer to me.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.

Psalms‬ ‭32:8‬ ‭ESV‬‬

I got to understand that it would be against God’s character to not reveal His will to me. He made me understand that His plans for me are for good and not for evil and He will make known to me, which paths to follow in life and which decisions to make.

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Psalms‬ ‭16:11‬ ‭ESV‬‬

The more I refreshed my mind on His promises, the more my anxieties concerning the continuity of this blog, as well as my calling in life, faded away. Because apart from what specific thing in life He has called me to do, first and foremost, He has called me to follow His Son and become His child. And the fact that I even dedire now to follow His will just shows that He has indeed made me His child and so His Spirit leads me through life, brearing fruits as evidence along the way. It shows that He is at work in me and will bring it to completion on that last day and so I find rest, joy and satisfaction in that.

For it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.

Philippians‬ ‭2:13‬ ‭ESV‬‬

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

Galatians‬ ‭22-23‬ ‭ESV‬‬

So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. Give no offense to Jews or to Greeks or to the church of God, just as I try to please everyone in everything I do, not seeking my own advantage, but that of many, that they may be saved.

1 Corinthians‬ ‭10:31-33‬ ‭ESV‬‬

He also helped me see that there’s nothing wrong in starting or writing a blog so long as its done solely for His glorification; to lead people to Christ and to display the work of God in my life. And everything I do in life should be based off of that. It doesn’t matter if I can speak in tongues, prophecy, work miracles or perform any other spritual gift. All that matters is if I truly follow Christ. Although I desire those gifts and will ask my Father to reveal what He has gifted me with, I do understand that not all who have received the Spirit would receive the same kind of spiritual gift.

Now there are varieties of gifts, but the same Spirit; and there are varieties of service, but the same Lord; and there are varieties of activities, but it is the same God who empowers them all in everyone. To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good.

All these are empowered by one and the same Spirit, who apportions to each one individually as he wills.

1 Corinthians‬ ‭12:4-7, 11‬ ‭ESV‬‬

And looking through all that I’ve written, the way my life has been changing in the past two days, and how I have rewritten the majority of this blog post again due to the malfunctioning of WordPress, I know God is working. He is speaking to me and through me. I may not have heard His voice audibly as some say they do, but I know He spoke through His Word, His Spirit, people and through my conscience as well. And the fact that He did this; the fact that He paid attention to me and gave me answers to the questions I had, just shows how much He cares about me! There are billions of people all over the world who went through situations worse than I did, but He chose to listen to me and give me what I needed. He understands that I have doubts at times and my faith fails as well, but He chooses to hold me fast. He stills my turmultuous soul and fills my heart with peace. He blesses me with wisdom and gifts me with joy. At every step of the journey, He calms me, guides me, and strengthens me.

Oh, How much my Father loves me and I am eternally grateful.